A little kindness 🌻

Dear diary 

Every week, I am given the opportunity to prove that I am stronger that I give myself credit for. Some challenges are tougher than others, but the rewards are even greater. If anything, I pray my daughter inherits the spirit of fighting and as well as understanding the importance of fighting with kindness. I have been humbled many times in this journey, but I am grateful for God’s mercy in every moment of it.

What a week! Schools are closed and Rethabile the aunt has come to play! My niece is spending her weekend with me and I am realising I am well on my way to becoming the aunt kids visit during school holidays. Only thing is I tend to forget that I am the adult here! How sad that my childlike ways have to be put aside so I can stand strong for the children because “I believe the children are our future”. 

As much as I am not sure of the rules, all I know is I loved seeing the kids happy. It honestly brings me joy to be able to just be with my babies! Wait, does loving spending time with my kids count as me loving my job? I really am living the dream! Only thing missing is my husband. No like really, this man is testing my patience. I feel like God wants to send me a petty man, hence the wait! It’s fine though, I guess he’ll get here when he is ready. He will even tell everyone to leave earth so I can be happy! 

I pray that this new week brings more joy. It’s my friend, Charlie’s birthday today so I know it’s going to be a great week! Here is to more love, more kindness and more yelling “GO PEE IN THE TOILET” 

Love, Rethabile

The stay at home mom

P.S Always choose to be kind. You never know who needs it

Ephesians 4:32 

TGIF...

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Dear diary

 

HAPPY FRIDAY!

 

Ahh yes, another day, another opportunity. What a week! Honestly, today has got to be my best day of my week. I spent the entire week worrying about my future, like that has ever worked for anyone, and to be quite honest, I have no idea why.

 

After what seemed to be one confusing and self-torturing week, today felt a new day to start over! Today we woke up earlier than usual and had our daily morning argument. I still don’t know what half of the argument was about, but what good would a morning be without us arguing. We had breakfast, got ready and we took a walk. The walk was exactly what I needed.

I am often very hard on myself. It’s not something I’m proud of, but I acknowledge it. I have very high expectations of myself because I know my strengths and capabilities. So why would I end up questioning myself and filling my head with self-doubt? That time I am so awesome, it is not even funny. Walking with Panda helped bring back the hope I needed. I mean how I could continue being “sad” while watching my kid discover the world’s sounds, colours, smells and the people Really, if Panda is brave enough to move and still be the happy chappy she is, who am I not be great after birthing such greatness? So yes, TGIF because there is so much to be happy and excited for.

Anyway, it is still Friday and there is still so much to do. Here is to more smiles, more life and an even happier Friday

 

Love, Rethabile

-       The stay at home mom

 

P.S May you continue finding reasons to smile, remain hopeful and remember that you are loved. Don’t Forget to pray

John 3 vs 16 

For my baby, Panda❤

 From two lines, to two years. It is a beautiful journey to be on🥳❤

Dear Panda, here is to what was, what is and what is yet to come...

July 1st, 2019: New month, yet no period! I've been cramping like crazy yet nothing! Not to mention that my body decided to give me a headache because stressing about my late period was not enough. Guess who's going to the optometrist tomorrow. I might as well get a pregnancy test before I start panicking. Oh who am I kidding, I'm thinking of getting a test...I'm already panicking

July 2nd, 2019: I went to the optometrist with my mom and baby sister, Puse, today. We lied and told my mom that I'm going to go get Citri-Soda. The lies we tell parents are crazy stupid at times. Anyway, I read somewhere on the Internet that it is best to use fresh morning pee for the test, and I will not argue with the Internet!!

July 3rd, 2019: It is confirmed!! Someone will look at me and think I am embarrassing. I'm gonna be a mom!! Yup

March 3rd, 2022: From 2 lines to 2 years. What a journey this has been. My darling Panda, you the kindest, purest, most genuine love I have experienced on this here earth. I never knew, or rather acknowledged all the good I deserve until you showed up. I had no idea the journey would be the way it is. I have my flaws and I have my wins but in everything, I have you. I am so grateful for you, my being. I can't wait to wake up and have you next to me on the anniversary of our meeting. For all the tears, the laughs, the fears, the conquering and faith, I am grateful. I love you so much baby girl.
WE ARE ALMOST 2!!!! 🥳❤😁😁

Love, your mommy
Rethabile ❤

P.S Jesus loves me, this I know. For your existence told me so❤