Retha's Diary

Dear diary  Every week, I am given the opportunity to prove that I am stronger that I give myself credit for. Some challenges are tougher than others, but the rewards are even greater. If anything, I pray my daughter inherits the spirit of fighting and as well as understanding the importance of fighting with kindness. I have been humbled many times in this journey, but I am grateful for God’s mercy in every moment of it. What a week! Schools are closed and Rethabile the aunt has come to play! My niece is spending her weekend with me and I am realising I am well on my way to becoming the aunt kids visit during school holidays. Only thing is I tend to forget that I am the adult here! How sad that my childlike ways have to be put aside so I can stand strong for the children because “I believe the children are our future”.  As much as I am not sure of the rules, all I know is I loved seeing the kids happy. It honestly brings me joy to be able to just be with my babies! Wait, does ...

💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛  Dear diary   HAPPY FRIDAY!   Ahh yes, another day, another opportunity. What a week! Honestly, today has got to be my best day of my week. I spent the entire week worrying about my future, like that has ever worked for anyone, and to be quite honest, I have no idea why.   After what seemed to be one confusing and self-torturing week, today felt a new day to start over! Today we woke up earlier than usual and had our daily morning argument. I still don’t know what half of the argument was about, but what good would a morning be without us arguing. We had breakfast, got ready and we took a walk. The walk was exactly what I needed. I am often very hard on myself. It’s not something I’m proud of, but I acknowledge it. I have very high expectations of myself because I know my strengths and capabilities. So why would I end up questioning myself and filling my head with self-doubt? That time I am so awesome, it is not even funny. Walking with Panda helpe...

 From two lines, to two years. It is a beautiful journey to be on🥳❤ Dear Panda, here is to what was, what is and what is yet to come... July 1st, 2019: New month, yet no period! I've been cramping like crazy yet nothing! Not to mention that my body decided to give me a headache because stressing about my late period was not enough. Guess who's going to the optometrist tomorrow. I might as well get a pregnancy test before I start panicking. Oh who am I kidding, I'm thinking of getting a test...I'm already panicking July 2nd, 2019: I went to the optometrist with my mom and baby sister, Puse, today. We lied and told my mom that I'm going to go get Citri-Soda. The lies we tell parents are crazy stupid at times. Anyway, I read somewhere on the Internet that it is best to use fresh morning pee for the test, and I will not argue with the Internet!! July 3rd, 2019: It is confirmed!! Someone will look at me and think I am embarrassing. I'm gonna be a mom!! Yup ...