Finding reasons to smile ❤

Dear diary

After the week I had, I need a drink, my husband and a whole lotta food

A lot of times, people don't get the whole "stay at home mom" thing. I'm not sure what they think it is, but it's definitely not what I'm living 😂. I hear and see people's opinions, in which they are very much entitled to, and one thing I can say for sure is they judge based on what I give them and what they choose to understand. It's actually fun to witness. Some think it's fun, others think it's torture and then there's me, thinking it's simply my life. These are things I think about during my strolls...yes darling, I deliberately take walks. That's how nice my life is. I'm kidding, I just don't have a car 😂

Ever since the move, I spend a lot of time with Panda. Like a lot. No like A LOT. TOO MUCH TIME IF YOU ASK ME. Sometimes it's fun and other days I wish my husband was here already so I could take a nap for a little, lousy year😂...or 5. Anyway, on days I don't want her "gone", I realise just how much of a cool kid she is. She counts to and from ten, can identify herself with all 4 of her names, Panda included and my gosh does this child speak!!! Tjerr she talks so damn much that when she sleeps, I try not to breath. Crazy, I know. But really, she keeps me on my toes. Makes it kinda hard to study and work but motivates me in the same breath. She's a paradox, I wish to get a break from her, yet my days are meaningless without her. Who would have thought that such a person would exist in my life? Her birthday is coming up and we are almost 2!! And yes, I said we. I mean I'm celebrating that I looked death in the eye during birth and came out alive with a child, a few stitches and emotional trauma. I'm starting to think I didn't come out a winner😐 nonetheless, I'm just really excited for our big day.
Another reason to be grateful for this week is my career. Work is coming along great, thanks to my amazing team who's not a team but a team to me, and as for my love life, just like my husband, is still nonexistent. The audacity of this man to keep me waiting 😤. RUDE!

The highlight if my week though, has to be the guy who said I lack humanity and quoted a line from 'Redemption song' by Bob Marley. Yup, I'm living the dream

This was a week filled with laughter, tears and a whole lot of Panda...overwhelming yet satisfying ❤ God has truly been good man! Let's see what greatness we will achieve this coming week.

Love, Rethabile
- The Stay at home mom

P.S May we all find the strength we all so deserve to face another tomorrow. 

Mark 11:24

Bros before Woes

  Dear diary, I am tired but we move!!

This has been a very trying week. Moving to a new place with Panda is a little rougher than I thought. Trust me, it is great being in a new home and being an adult. It is the adjusting and moving forward that kinda gets hard, but thank God for the brothers I have.

It isn’t all so bad. Every night, the man I live with and I sit and talk. We talk for hours, sometimes until both our eyes get heavy. Honestly, he gives me what I never knew I needed…companionship. The life of a stay at home mom gets a little lonely at times. It is worse now that I have to be a mom 24/7 so having someone around to share details of the day with is a blessing. Anyway, the man is my brother so the companionship feels safe and advice from him hits harder than a ton of bricks. He doesn't know this but is one of my favourite part of the day!!

17 February 2022

Faith was restored today. Being a full time stay at home mom is time consuming, energy draining and mentally messes one up. I find myself constantly arguing with someone who can’t even pronounce my name correctly, like the audacity to raise your voice at me but can’t even say Rethabile. Children are brave shame. Anyway, today we spent the day with my cousin/best friend/ partner in everything. He calmed me down after I went on a rant about the difficulties of my new life, gave me ice cream and the thing he did that touched me the most was him playing with Panda. As a single mom, seeing the men in my life play such active roles in Panda’s life reminds me that I am not alone. It really does take a village to raise a child and I am honestly grateful for my brothers, Bongani and Phomolo.

OH, AND PANDA CONFIDENTLY POOPED IN THE TOILET!! IT'S A WIN FOR ME

Well I guess that is it from this week. I cant wait to see what the new wee has in store for me...I might do something crazy and go get my husband. 

Love, Rethabile

The Stay at Home Mom

P.S May you always find joy in the things you do, people you see and in the words you say

1 Chronicles 29:12

The beginning. Happy 25th birthday to me

Dear diary, today is my birthday!

Happy 25th birthday to me. A Quarter of a century. Man, God has been good. I am so proud of 24 year old me. For paving the way and being who I needed, my dear 24 year old self, I am eternally grateful for you. I am really excited about the 25th year I’m in. I have no idea why, but it just feels big.

I honestly didn’t picture my 25th birthday being like this. I woke up and realised I am living with a man, a dog and my daughter. At the age of 25, I am noticing that the toilet seat is up, dog poop smells REALLY DIFFERENT from human poop and I have a child that throws tantrums and addresses me in a tone I DO NOT APPRECIATE! Like “excuse me, young lady! I too, have issues of my own”. But there is something about waking up to being the centre of attention. After years of waking up and having it be about my sister and I, for the first time I had a birthday morning of my own. The first in my 25 years of living. I missed my sister though.To make things better, Justin Lakey from The Bachelorette: South Africa wished me a happy birthday. 25 really does look promising. I am looking forward to what the year has to bring. The blessings, the lessons, the opportunities and the love that will come with peace. Here is to new beginnings, greener pastures and genuine laughter.

 

Love, Rethabile

The Stay At Home Mom

Psalm 42 vs 11

May you find the courage you need to be who you want to be…